YOOOOOOOO! (:

in no mood right now...

gosh, i'm so damn tired that i dozed off while doing history worksheet and i wrote rubbish on my paper. somemore, i somekind of write my blog add down. =.= wth... since sec 1, geo class... i NEVER dozed off... and english class is funny. =) social studies is a waste of time.

卸下伪装后的我，什么也不是……
却，觉得好自在， 觉得好轻松……
i felt this way the whole day. i dont know why, i feeel that the contrast is big.
when i'm online, i can express myself freely with panda and daniel.. at least, i can laugh infront of the computer screen, typed nonsense, and even... have my eyes get watery when i'm feeeling down. thats the reason why i dont want to go offline even at 12, when i jolly well know there's sch tmr.
at least, i feeeel comfortable talking to them and... happy. =)

and in sch, i feeel not so of myself. ofcause, i still talk, laugh, crap.. and.. maybe, a bit of talking to myself. BUT somehow i dont feeel as comfortable as talking online and.. crapping. there's this contrast ar? somehow, i really do feeel better talking/crapping to panda and daniel (i'm not saying NOT with other friends) dont read into my words! =P... but yeah... ty panda and daniel. =)

ha, maybe... thats why, i dont laugh so much talk so much crap so much today.
somehow, the real.. 开心就笑，伤心就会流泪 的我 can truly be found, online chatting... HA, i'm glad i actually have hpy there for me ( i know there are).. but.. maybe, i express better when i'm online.. with no eye contacts and all... and with hpys. =)

feeling better right now, because i'm online. :DD

random thoughts

i'll never be lost, for i am... eLAINE[:
i am not going to say "i'm alright" if i'm not anymore.
its really tiring to convince yourself.. "you're gona be alright.." although ofcause, i'm gona be alright.
but at the moment in time.. i dont wish to restrict myself to being damn alright anymore...

lead me back if i ever get confused by things infront of me, alright? =)
i promise, i'll be thankful. =D